'Happily ever after'

All our fairy tales end with the prince and princess living 'happily ever after'.

On this day a year back, we started a journey hoping our story turns out to be like those fairly tales as well.

But 'Happily ever after' really doesn't exist, does it?

We were certainly not happy every single day of the past year.

At some point in the last year, we both were lost and we both felt abandoned. We got angry at each other on some days, we looked at ourselves and felt helpless at times and we hurt each other on a few other days.

And I know, that this last year has been incredibly tough on you. I brought you into an alien country and I left you here to fend for yourselves. You dealt with feelings you probably never recognized earlier. You fought with loneliness, and held back your tears when I wasn't with you. 

I remember you being scared of being alone. I remember you seeing me from the cracks of your barely open eyes every morning, scared of what the day would bring with it.

I remember you fighting with doubts and fears that you never knew existed.

We both probably fought a lot of battles in the last year. Most of those were with ourselves. We taught ourselves to smile when life was tough. We loved each other even more when days were tough. We smiled and went on with our lives when life really was strange and different. We never once gave up. 

Yes, we certainly were not happy every single day of our lives in the last year.

But 'happiness' is over rated. The prince and princess probably didn't live happily ever after as all those fairy tales wanted us to believe. But you know what? The prince and the princess don't have to be happy all the time. In fact, they cannot be happy all the time. That is just impossible. All the prince and the princess need is a reason to carry on when happiness escapes the clutches of their hands. 

We don't need happiness. All we need is an answer to the "Why" whenever we're sad and broken. I think we both found that answer in the last year. We know now that life doesn't have to be perfect all the time. We know now that life will betray us once in a while. We know now that life will be painful once in a while. 

But we also know that we will love each other even more when life decides to mess things up for us.

We both know that we will take all that life has given us and make it into something extremely beautiful.

We both know that no matter how tough a day might be, it will end with us finding solace in each other. It will end with you making me smile, and with me making a fool of myself trying to make you smile.

I think we both found meaning in each other in the last year.

I think we both learned to live in the last year.

I love you.